You combine an overworked pms-ing woman in an apartment that is full of people who watch football non-stop and get irritable when bothered and make huge messes and make said apartment smell like cigarettes and boys?
A complete nervous breakdown.
That was how my break went.
I work too much right now...7 days a week and no down time...so I was excited to have a break and hang out with the hubby....but this didn't really happen...instead I got to play hostess and was ignored by said hubby due to football and parents and brother being in town. I tried to be a good sport but was in a lot of pain due to the female monthly visitor...and I usually am fine emotionally, but I am kind of a hermit and my home is my cave of which I do not really like to share...I need alone time which I did not get much of at all...and my kitchen got taken over and the only room I had to escape to was my bedroom and some of the time I didn't even have that...so the day after thanksgiving I had a complete melt down. I bawled for hours....made hubby mad because he thought I was trying to be manipulative or something but I was just having a pitty party and didn't want anyone to be around and especially see me cry...I hate people seeing me cry...it makes me feel weak....So thus began our very first actual legit fight...we didn't talk to each other for over a day and kind of avoided each other....I did my best to be out of the house most of Saturday.....and then when everyone finally left that evening I started cleaning cuz that is my default mode and hubby was about ready to explode and started saying things in a not very nice way and I finally snapped and in my moment of no control I threw an onion at him and called him a few choice names....I have NEVER EVER done this before....It is kind of funny looking back at it now...we talked for hours after that..I cried a lot...and hubby felt bad.....not my intentions....a lot of things we didn't know or forgot or took for granted about each other came out...which was good....and now we feel better....but I am still kind of in meh mode and can't seem to motivate myself to care about anything anymore...just going through the motions....I hate getting in slumps like this....sigh
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Oh Sarah, I'm sorry! I hate having those times too. However, I must say that throwing an onion is pretty darn funny. I hope that if I ever throw something at Brian, it will be an onion. :) I hope you start feeling better soon and that Christmas will be less hectic for you.
I'm sorry you had such a bad weekend Sarah. I hope you are feeling better now...but I must say that I'm impressed that after 5 long years of marriage this was only your first fight! The onion throwing is pretty funny though, wish i'd thought of that last time we had an argument...haha! Feel better though! I wish we were closer, we sure miss hanging out with you guys!
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