Most people go through this phase when they are teenagers.
I have managed to hit mine like right now.
I was always a very responsible and obedient person.
I am tired.
Hence the new clothing that aren't so sophisticated or conservative.
Hence the dark brown hair I knew my husband wouldn't like.
Hence the obsession with pole dance and wanting to get fantastic at it.
And now I want a tattoo...a belly button ring....and a nose piercing....all of which I know my husband and many others would not like either.
I don't know what is causing this or why I am currently going through this phase exactly.
I feel like I have always done what everyone else wanted me to do and not so much what I want to do.
I feel like I am lacking control in so many aspects of my life and that I need to do something crazy to send out the message.
Whatever.
I don't know how to explain it all exactly.
I have managed to hit mine like right now.
I was always a very responsible and obedient person.
I am tired.
Hence the new clothing that aren't so sophisticated or conservative.
Hence the dark brown hair I knew my husband wouldn't like.
Hence the obsession with pole dance and wanting to get fantastic at it.
And now I want a tattoo...a belly button ring....and a nose piercing....all of which I know my husband and many others would not like either.
I don't know what is causing this or why I am currently going through this phase exactly.
I feel like I have always done what everyone else wanted me to do and not so much what I want to do.
I feel like I am lacking control in so many aspects of my life and that I need to do something crazy to send out the message.
Whatever.
I don't know how to explain it all exactly.
2 comments:
I know your not asking for opinions...but I vote no tattoo....at least the belly button ring you can always take out later if you get sick of it. My sister-in-law is very sick of the tattoo she wish she never got ten years ago. Although, on a different note, I do think your hair looks great both dark brown and blonde. :)
I've been there.
Sleep on it. 30 good long sleeps. If you still feel the same, then pursue it.
It's never to late to learn to fly.
Or, maybe, you realize you've been flying all along, you just need a shift in scenery.
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